I felt a really strong wave of anxiety just now.
Procrastinating is just making things worse and even when I try to relax and to do something else my brain thinks like I'm wasting time.
I'm applying to bachelors of education and sigh, the MOMENT OF TRUTH is here. Reference collecting... I feel like the worst person in the world for some reason, just asking for a reference out of nowhere but that's the problem with academia, it's so inorganic and only works because of professionally written e-mails because who needs to be eloquent anymore
and at the same time I should be looking into programs everywhere, it seems like teaching is easy to get in but it's not true if you don't have all the courses lol
and everything just seems like a dead end, whether it's lack of interest or