I just spent $46 on stickers. that is all

Sunday April 6

Seems that ordering "good enough" items from Amazon is simpler and easier than walking from store to store, rifling through countless items

Been listening more to Patrick Teahan and just listened to the NYT article about being estranged from parents. 

Definitely relate to the "Doer" type of personality  

My stationary wishlist:

Kakuno F or EF 

New fountain pen for Y - I got this! 

confidential roller stamp 

midori whiteout tape

more a5 20 hole papers 

a thicker a5 20 ring binder

Some sort of thinner Hobonichi A5 notebook (haven't decided on any yet)

A5 notebook with dot grid that i can put into my 20 ring binder 😂 

dot markers (1 or 2) 

a clip to keep pages open

Midori - I got this!

earlier in the year I wanted to do purely A6 notebooks. now I feel they are too small for my liking. 

What stationary I’m using for 2025

 I got the reissued 2025-2029 A6 five year Hobonichi and have been enjoying writing summaries of my day in it 😊 

For longer format personal diary journalling, I’ve been using an A6 Stalogy grid notebook but find the lack of space challenging. Plus my hand falls off the book when I am scribbling on the right page. I will very likely need to switch to a different format soon.

I got Y and I the Hobonichi A6 planner, so far I’m really enjoying the simple layout and that we get to write in it together. I’m using more stationary in it as well lol

I plan to get the hobotoridori drawer pouch in february. I’m also excited about the tools and toys tin, which costs $45 and is full of useful things (mostly the clip and stamp and stickers). 

I think there are new colours in the kakuno, which I’m excited about.

It’s december 3rd

 And a lot’s happened in the past few months. A lot. 

Canada post strike

Trump got re-elected

Things are still expensive

Another friend gone

Karaoke 2 times (3rd one coming up)

Met a new guy

Group therapy came and gone

November was the month of appointments. December so far has been the month of rest. 

Acid reflux

Travelled to hamilton and mtl amidst precipitous job and relationship situations

Back on EI i wonder if my life will be as tumultuous as my dad’s, who was also collecting EI between contracts at a time. 

Comedones and Coats

I feel like a pore that has been unclogged after a long time. The clog has been present for what feels like a long time. 

Unfortunately the pore must continue to be clogged until I extract the comedone.

Unfortunately. 

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This is a good opportunity to practice holding my emotions. 

For example, I can say: I just bought a new winter coat. It looks and feels amazing, and I love it. 

I feel strongly possessive towards…this coat. I am also cherishing this protective feeling. It’s like, “finally, I have the thing I want!”

But right now, it’s not yet cold enough to wear this coat. But I know that when the weather becomes colder, I will enjoy wearing it. 

Pulling the sheets over

 I suddenly felt really old. And the familiar feeling of “oh, this again” hit me hard. 

Today it felt good to let my mind go and wander. Not moving against any mental resistance today felt great. 

Walking outside at 10:30 pm, i felt really grateful for living in a calm, safe, and scenic place. I could watch the city lights from across the lake here, and enjoy the bright half moon among the stars. I can actually see the stars here! 

 I feel non entitled and humble. I was let go and they are now holding me at “we’ll look into if you can stay.” Haven’t sent my laptop back, so i guess we’ll see later this week. 

Keep getting thoughts of “i felt productive when i was there”, “the pay isn’t much but it pays the bills”, “i’m glad i was able to help the team and be productive”. 

It may just be stockholm syndrome. Or, a japanese-esque way of life, where I am giving this job my 110%, no matter how unimportant or small it is. 

My mood is falling and i feel forces at work that are trying to take me away from feeling at home.