Monday, March 29, 2021

Resistance

People who haven't experienced depression possess an interest in people that do. Once you experience depression you don’t feel the need to chase that immersion anymore. Or something. 

Sally and Nathan part 2? I can't type creatively right now because every time I do, I visualize a word count at the bottom of the page increasing and that makes me want to shorten my sentences into something that doesn't make any sense.

"Currently, creative writing is difficult for me, as I visualize a hypothetical word count that motivates me to trim sentences." [citation]

Vancouver

The sky turned from a shining blue-white to a mellow blue-grey, then into a foggy grey blanket as we flew past all the mountains and across the Fraser river. The ocean looked beautiful from above. We descended into a hushed coastal city lulled by the gentle grey waves. Walking around the bustling core felt different from being in Toronto mainly because of the fresh air and the clean streets. Crystalline drops fell from branches and ferns by the sidewalk. I wanted to bend down and observe the microenvironment. 

The most memorable event that day was walking to the bridge by Selina’s apartment and watching a filmed action scene, with men swaying like zombies crawling onto an approaching van, starting to break the windows, ultimately dragging a screaming woman out of the car. I felt closer to Selina and Duncan after going through this shared event with them. Something good is always happening when you’re with friends. We saw two diamond rings on the sand. 

I had a packed schedule this trip. I felt genuinely excited to see Annie and Sherry, something I haven't felt in a long time, but the art at the VAG didn’t excite me at all. It was too politically and environmentally focused, and the colours some artists used looked like they were picked by a toddler drawing with crayons. Granville island was busy. We took the Aquabus across a small distance, which was funny. My pants held up to the rain, but not the wind, which was strongest at Canada place. I think it was pretty strong last time I was there too, in the summer. I had no appetite all trip, but it came back with the help of some alcohol on the last night. I’m glad I booked the airbnb myself. 

Number of ubers taken: 3
Number of compass passes bought: 2
Number of times listened to “I’m God” by clams casino: 6
Number of school things i did: 0 
Number of times i misread things: 2 
Number of times got rained on: every time i went outside 
Number of cats petted: 2 
Number of arcteryx jackets seen: probably more than 6 
Number of dollars spent: 410 ish 
fruits eaten: 1 
Coffees drank: 2 (1 decaf)
Eggs eaten: 2 
Number of times I ate Miku sushi that I didn’t pay for: 2 

Things learned:
DONT go to gastown at night cuz it’s close to east Hastings
Squamish is best for outdoor bouldering
Affordable candles at swirl (local BC VQA store) - also need 2 pieces of id to buy alcohol
Yaletown distillery > Yaletown brewery (but we went to the latter)
Bouldering is big in van- must book >3d in advance
Small victory is a popular cafe with good bread