end of the semester

I arrived in Ottawa April 19, a little stressed about taxes and what I'm going to do over the summer. Over time, the stress faded.

Lab

Wheeler lab is full of interesting people. Today I talked to Tanya and she said there may be some work for me to develop an assay testing for a new biomarker ANG2 for the DMF devices. However, Darius came by and said I was not being paid for this but to make devices... When I talked to Chris later he said that they'd appreciate my help and use of my time should be paid for. Tanya is going to e-mail Aaron and run it by him. I also talked to Julian about the reagent testing but halfway through his explanation Alex and Chris came in to tell him I can't be a part of that because it involves skills and more advanced experiments, which could go badly if I messed this up. I'm not sure if Tanya is going to e-mail Aaron either, maybe she'll forget. Thins never happen the way I imagine them to, whether by chance or they were just never meant to be. ?????

Islands in the stream

i am reading the bell jar from nina. it is such an interesting book. I really like how she weaves events together with bits of opinion sprinkled in between.
For ec=xample:

I slid into the self-service elevator and pushed the button for my floor. The doors folded shut like a noiseless accordion. Then my ears went funny, and I noticed a big, smudgy-eyed Chinese woman staring idiotically into my face. It was only me, of course, I was appalled to see how wrinkled and used-up I looked.

Today as I was taking the GO bus from square one I was looking out the window and had some deep thoughts.
My consciousness followed the stream of scenery. I fell into relaxation among the soft afternoon shadows cast by the setting sun. Grass and trees whizzed by, leaving a pastel smudge of scenery as an afterimage behind my eyes as we zoomed towards our destination. When we entered Toronto the green faded to a murkier blue-grey, because the sun was now reflecting off of more and more apartment windows.

I kept thinking about nina's apartment, a place filled with glasses and various food items. I felt sorry we didn't clean up the coconut milk jars. It made me feel more responsible for the mess. Jennifer and I played melee with nina's roomates and they were good, but nina wasn't into it as much.

Last night Jennifer educated both of us on the full story of Narnia. It was very nostalgic.
I need to be careful. If I just read and absorb the books I choose to read like an outsider, I'm not going to get much out of these books. To immerse yourself in literature is to read everything.